Wednesday, March 21, 2007
not so good life.
haha. i hope i'm alread getting used to everything thats around me. new class, new faces and all that. but of course i still do miss everyone in OG20(pae) and 07s11(pae). a lot in fact. but its life that one must carry on right? haha. this is not meant to be an emo post. but well, yeah.
i hope calanthea's okay though. take care my dear. we'll all be there for you! (:
i think i seriously need sleep. i'm feeling tired all the time lah. cannot concentrate during lectures, and that's not a good thing. i should really really start studying! yeah. easier said than done.
reply to tags!
caihui: HELLO! haha. tell me about EVERYTHING on friday (:
peiyu: im okay now! thanks for being there! :DD
nicole: TWIN! i'm happy that you like it! haha
lothars: haha! next time i'll call you loud loud!
jolina: :D!
i-ming: YA LA! miss you alread can! pls go out soon!!!
ruey-lin: yes i'm doing well! thanks for caring! (: i miss you all too. when's SYF? maybe we'll go help you all out! :D
calanthea: i love you CAL CAL! (: take care alrights! see you tomorrow!
eunice: oh yes. it did. hahaa!
ben: haiyo. you don't like that la. that time when we multiplied i was sad too! haha. the love's around! lol!
tianlong: don't anyhow say lor! LOL.
i'm in love with this wallet from River Island la. i-ming knows! lols. love it. and and this pair of cool converse sneaks from Leftfoot. i heard it's imported la! nice leh. haha!
Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On
You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Keep holding on
Keep holding on
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
cal got me stucked to this song when she played it on her phone the other day. love it.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Rivermaya - You'll Be Safe Here
Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine
And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall i be
Chorus:
Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here
From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here
Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong
And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe
When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here
Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here
From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart
When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here
In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here
When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here
emoness, is killing me.
sometimes i really don't understand myself. i know very well that i shouldn't be allowing myself to fall into the dark pit. yet, i keep seeing myself going towards that direction. i very much want to stop. but i just dunno what to do. history repeats itself. i don't want it to repeat itself.
cherishing is something that one will only learn when one starts losing something/someone. i think i was just being very selfish. and so self-centered to the point where i don't really care how other feels until something happens. and that will probably wake the selfish constance up to see what i've so much caused. i think what i need is a shell. to hide in and live my life in so that, whatever i do, will not cause any hurt to anyone. sometimes, i really envy tortoises and turtles. but then again, that will mean that i'm running away from the problems and refusing to find a solution to it.
oh god, help.
if i've been boring you, i'm so sorry. i just need an outlet to release.
omg. i'm feeling so emo these few days la. and it just gets worse by the day. the more i see and listen, the more i'm emotional.
haha. i'm just used to typing haha after every single line i say.
Sunday, March 11, 2007
just a few days, my blog, or rather my tag-board, has had quite a lot of thing going on.
i wanna reply to tags in my post. cause apparently i feel that it'll be like quite long. lol. here goes.
jolina: YES! i updated! see you soon dearies.
siying: HAHA! yes yes! (:
Passer-By: haha. i like that way you say things. thanks, but don't have to care about passer-by anymore. (: thanks for standing up for me. byt he way, you are?
fiona: see you around! haven been seeing you. thanks!
jun yong: ... hahah.
tianlong: haha. laxing!!
nicholas: oh yes. i'm so in SA. lol.
cherylnn: DARLING! yes pls. meet up soon! (: thanks for standing up for me. i love you!
gj: don't need to care him/her okay? not worth it.. thanks anyway.. i delete your post k? don't want you to expose you number..
justus: what crap la you. haha. full of crap can. ya, try telling the govt that. haha! thanks!
passer-by: your immaturity amazes me. the only reason why you're not using your name is because you know very well yourself that you're talking nonsense. you're so so freaking afraid that people know who you are and condemn you of being a loser. i'm so sorry. with or without name, your still a capital L, loser. get a life and do things that are more productive and constructive. stop wasting my time, everyone else's time and your time. if you're so not happy, or if you hate me so much, jolly well get lost. i don't need some loser around my life to boost my self-worth. thanks, but no thanks.
and to everyone else, continue to tag me! and ignore whoever's creating trouble. (:
i'm back from malaysia. short short short trip. haha. i did my new specs. didn't managed to do funkaye colours cause apparently, my dad says those suck on me. i tried like lime green, yellow and some weird blue. in the end i chose a black full frame. haha. but i like it! my dad says i look nerd in it. :DD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWIN! don't feel old okay! one more year to CLEO! xD LOL!going out very soon to go celebrate. i hope she gets surprised with the gift! hahaa.
so i went to school for orientation on friday. OG12, was rather fun actually i think. because i've got cal cal and alicia with me. so i think it was alright. beginning was super sian. then out OG got damn high after that. i was with OG20(PAE) for disco night. the feeling and atmosphere was so different. it was less high, probably due to the fact that xin min wasn't there. MAN, i miss her can. it may be also due to the songs choice also la. so well, got really really emo after that at macs with OG20. cried cried and cried. i think i cried like 10000 buckets. the thought of not having some of themin SA makes me very very sad. ):
OG20: i love you all! you all are the first friends i made in SA, and i really enjoy all the times we had together. those sweet memories and random jokes will always be kept in my heart. as we go our separate ways, i really hope we'll still do lots of catching up okay! i'll be constantly praying for all of you. don't give up okay! miss you all.
there's a war going on at my house now.. i need my bullet vest!
hope everyone's doing fine!
with Him, all things are possible.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
CONSTANCE MAKES HER GRAND ENTRANCE.
hello world. i've been away for so long and i really have a lot of things that i wanna say, because i've been feeling so much these days.
so yes. as you all have already known. posting results were out. and guess what. i was posted to somewhere i least expect myself to have gone to. when i saw the results, i was like OMG, and too shocked and surprised (not in a good way), until i don't really know how i should react to it. BAM. reality hits me. and i didn't expect myself to cry outside the GO. so to whomever who saw the ugly side of constance, i'm sorry.you know, i wasn't really crying because i'm not in SA. that's part of the reason why i did cry. but the major reason as to why i cried, i think, was most probably because of the thought that i wouldn't be able to see my SA mates for a few days, and not only that, miss orientation. i love 07S11, and you guys know it. i miss OG20. and no other OG's gonna replace it. so probably, that was what really triggered the tear glands in me.
this is gonna be mostly an emo post. i'm sorry.
to my loveliest, sweetest 07s11: life in SA will never be the same without you guys. you all cheer me up when i'm down; when i cry, you all cry with me, when i laught, you guys laugh harder. everyone of you all has a special place in my heart. we do crazy things together (remember the sms we sent to miss sim? :D), get scolded for ponning class/lecs together. you all make me love SA so much more. i feel that we're not only a class, we've become a family. i would never ever trade anything for the time we had together as a class. i'll miss you all so so so much. for some of us, if we're not in the same class anymore, please make sure that you won't forget me (write my name on your mirror or something). and for those whom i will be with in the same class, 2 more wonderful years together (and i'm sorry if you were wishing you would be in a different class as me. :P). I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU ALL LIKE TRUCKLOADS, PLANELOADS SHIPLOADS.
well, i'm really feeling very emo these days. went for orientation in a foreign school i rather not go yesterday. and let me tell you, its rather boring and senseless. my heart was in SA, come on. but of course, i made some new friends, who actually made me life a little better over there. guess what. the school actually make the J1s go for this leadership course during the orientation. and they actually have to pay for it. OMG. thank god i'm so out of that place.
i have so many randome misses. I MISS TWIN! I MISS I-MING! I MISS N371! I MISS OG20! I MISS 07S11 (1ST INTAKE)! I MISS 4E406!
aww..
i need to change blogskin. although i really like tw previous one a lot. haha.
anyway, i decided to give orientation in SA a miss, cause i was feeling so sick in the morning. BAH. i hate that sick feeling. it makes you lie on the bed and not move for like 25498752313 hours. i'll go SA tomorrow okay! make sure all you people i miss come!!!! DISCO NIGHT. we're gonna rock the place down. :DDDD
and and and. during the days of my hibernation (from blogger), i took lots and lots of pictures! nice pictures. (:
pretteh pictures eh. poised! (:
and i so love this song now. no one's gonna stop me from typing the lyrics here.
The walls start breathingMy mind's unweavingMaybe it's best you leave me alone.A weight is liftedOn this eveningI give the final blow.When darkness turns to light,It ends tonight.emo.
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